(Another cross post from Fetlife. IT seems my mind wants to have fun with me lately. Enjoy nonetheless)
I sit here on a precipice awaiting the dawn. A gentle breeze flows past me. Fitting, for within these next few minutes, they shall be needed to sweep away the forthcoming debris. As the sun comes over the horizon, I can already start to feel the effects on me. I will not run this time. I will the orb and let it have it’s way with me. It is time. I have seen many a death in my time, most at my hands or having to do with me. Some driven not by my deeds, but by their own. Guilty or innocent, it did not matter. None has hurt me more than the most recent. My lover, in fact. She was only human, but the most special I had encountered to date. It could be said that she, entering my world, had changed my so called “life”. But that word life holds very little meaning for one such as I. She, however held more meaning in my world than any number before her and now she’s gone. Driven mad by cooperative attempts to control and free. A death is still a death. At times, I was ghost to her more than my true form, but I held her in my arms just the same as when I was corporeal. It was at her last breath only a short time ago that the path I now walk became real.
And real is the pain I am feeling now. One such as I feels little in that way, but when we do, the sensation is lasting. The sun’s rays seem to shine spotlight in my direction, searing and peeling the flesh from me. As I’ve said before, fitting. The winds take charge of the cleanup as my pain grows and becomes less tolerable. I shall not move. This place will mark the end of me. I could only hope that my remains would somehow gather elsewhere and coalesce, possible making a new, better form to rise up as. That is wishful thinking on me part as I know better. I take what few breaths left I am offered and give silent thought to all of those in my past, victim and the like. The sun, seemingly speeding it’s rise, wants it’s part in this deed to be done. I will not fight it. I am nearly aflame within the next few moments of thought. The pain unbearable, yet, I do not scream. No one with any care would hear my cries, anyway. The last person I thought would has departed this mortal coil. I will not join her where she is. It is not my luxury to see her again. Fate is a cruel Mistress. I achingly turn to catch glaze of her lifeless form and shed a bloody, fiery tear. She, the angel I never deserved, close as she ever was. And the last thing I will ever see as my now emblazoned body bursts forth and scatters what it will into the wind. There will be no more of this feeding, torturing, persecuted child of the night. A better being needs to take this one’s place.
Will I now be freed?